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"and as we kissed in this bliss," [21 Apr 2009|10:16pm] i fell into oblivion. Now wouldn't it be nice? Now wouldn't it be nice? i fell in love once but broke my own heart twice. backlash.

march 26/2009 [28 Mar 2009|04:54pm] with my fingertips i bar your bottom lips but nothing restrains my secrets aren't safe. backlash.

march22,2009 [28 Mar 2009|04:48pm] winter games put you to shame, as you whisper little romances into my ear. i fear for you my darling, i fear for you. you have those Hollywood tears that could make you a star. it's just that...you'll dry up just like your words and promises. backlash.

[01 Mar 2009|07:47pm]                                                030109 sometimes i feel as if i'm going crazy. plunging down a blinding hole in an empty room with an extra set of walls, falling down. down down deeper, and the walls just falling faster. everything broken around me, pieces. nothing adhesive, as if there is no cure, no solution. like i can't tie back all the ties, only this tie around my neck because it feels like i can't breathe when my heart gets so heavy. and in this empty room i see all your faces, hear all your voices. overlapping, biting, conflicting. everything crashing, and i feel like i am going to explode. and then i hear sounds, and it's just somebody opening the door to my empty room, and i smile as if everything is just fine, darling, everything is just dandy.                                                    020909 in her last moment, her last hour of death, her chest jumped and it frolicked as she let out one last breath. seasons broke down and swelled with the tide and i think to myself, my, what a beautiful bride.  sceneit.|backlash.

"no, but it's detrimental to my state of mind" [23 Jan 2009|08:20pm] [ mood | apathetic ] dear diary...mood: apathetic too good to last i'm pro at this mask a smile to the eyes and i'm good to lie don't take this the wrong way i'm walking away with what you didn't say. break break! stop, cut the action when i gave you my heart i meant it as a transaction... backlash.

[21 Jan 2009|08:41pm] breaking ties and tying knots, don't you let your blood clot. your eyes only and hand over heart. don't dont forget love, to let your breathing start. backlash.

[18 Sep 2008|06:44am] hello mister i'm surprised to see you again. so soon so soon. i could've sworn i saw you screaming at the last full moon. once upon a time...i wished on a whisper smaller than a dime. if only i knew how to find a sustenence with a deeper substance. because . because the pain with you being so shallow is that i felt claustrophobic before hitting the surface. backlash.

[16 Sep 2008|02:38pm] not necessarily under the influence. more like im just missing the pieces. keep it positive keep it clean dont think i dont see you. and why do i have to look away when i see you. "is it better to have loved and lost, or never have loved at all?" this sinking feeling, ;bitterness, disappointment, sadness. and when will i find the words. maybe im not trying hard enough. i dont know what im saying. i really do swear                   this is me, this is me, not under the influence. just somewhere in pieces. backlash.

[12 Sep 2008|09:52pm] strangers as we are i miss you as my half we walk so close, yet in distance i've forgotten how you laugh. and once we were fingers intertwined now its like fingers can't even lift to say hi hey goodbye i can backspace all i want but i can't push delete push send i can go home but i can't push end beg i will not i just wish we were still friends i need to know if i'm wasting my chances, or if i'm just wasting my time. sceneit.|backlash.

[19 Aug 2008|04:01pm] if my mind were a film, then you'd be the reel but its all fiction baby cause you were never real. i called the shots but you called the  cuts. for me the script was never  deep enough. oh how i love the way you act. youtube , anyone? sorry im not that good. but if youve got some videos, get 'em at me.  i especially like watching good covers :) sceneit.|backlash.

just remember that [16 Jul 2008|03:15pm] [ music | emarosa ] life is beautiful every time you have a chance to wake up. i think a lot of people don't realize that. sometimes i forget a lot too. mhmm http://www.myspace.com/ribshipsandriots i dont go on as much as before,but i like talking to interesting people and friends. :) sceneit.|backlash.

inspired by dgd's "AE". the stop! part. [24 Jun 2008|02:21pm] stones and sticks, take your pick a limb with no leaves don't leave if you can't take the seasons changing. break break brake. stop! crashed into you i crashed into me. i gave you my love, you left me this disease. no need to read my lines, just read my eyes, except when you're blind. so kind so kind. kind of like when we could converse without planning rhymes. backlash.

[20 Jun 2008|10:46am] because of you and everything we had, i am a ghost. i'm fading in color as the sun gets darker. backlash.

hi ho the mistle tow, [17 Jun 2008|02:33pm] when you're cold i'll eat the snow.  backlash.

[25 May 2008|10:03pm] its just like i am two worlds apart. sceneit.|backlash.

[12 May 2008|03:12pm]                                                                                                                               051107                                              the perks for being a wallflower this book kind of makes me happy, i guess, because i can relate to it. it also makes me sad, you know, because i can relate to it. i like books like these that make me sad because they make me sad and when i'm sad i think about things that usually i try to ignore because those things make me sad. i know its bad because i try to distance myself from the world and live in my own world where things like 'problems at home' dont exist. but i do, and i get sad alot and i smile and i get sad and i wish we were all happy and loved each other and liked each other all at the same time. but other people always have it worse. i kind of wish that i bought more stuff so the receipt i'm writing this all on was longer, but not really. its already 9:42 and i want to read a little more so good night i have school tomorrow. sceneit.|backlash.

[06 May 2008|03:39pm] [ music | kissing in cars - pierce the veil ] oh dear my teenage love, i can't write vengeful poetry when i think of you. you make me too happy. sceneit.|backlash.

[02 Apr 2008|04:31pm] rose within the weeds i was an overgrown seed when you found me i was fighting the trees blocking the sun the clouds thought, "this is a shady business" i sank my feet down to the shallow pond wondering how far down would i slide and that was the moment your hands moved mine. and who said thorns would always hurt you. sceneit.|backlash.

[23 Mar 2008|06:03pm] the shortest prologue you'll ever lay eyes on: please . sceneit.|backlash.

[17 Mar 2008|06:29am] sweetie youre a corpse to the core.    (say it isnt so...) you think about death so much you're deaf to the loud life around you . sceneit.|backlash.

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