[01 Mar 2009|07:47pm]                                                030109 sometimes i feel as if i'm going crazy. plunging down a blinding hole in an empty room with an extra set of walls, falling down. down down deeper, and the walls just falling faster. everything broken around me, pieces. nothing adhesive, as if there is no cure, no solution. like i can't tie back all the ties, only this tie around my neck because it feels like i can't breathe when my heart gets so heavy. and in this empty room i see all your faces, hear all your voices. overlapping, biting, conflicting. everything crashing, and i feel like i am going to explode. and then i hear sounds, and it's just somebody opening the door to my empty room, and i smile as if everything is just fine, darling, everything is just dandy.                                                    020909 in her last moment, her last hour of death, her chest jumped and it frolicked as she let out one last breath. seasons broke down and swelled with the tide and i think to myself, my, what a beautiful bride.  1 comment|post comment

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