lets pretend that we're sober

"and as we kissed in this bliss,"

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 05:18:41 GMT

i fell into oblivion.
Now wouldn't it be nice?
Now wouldn't it be nice?
i fell in love once but broke
my own heart twice.

march 26/2009

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 23:56:15 GMT

with my fingertips i bar your bottom lips but
nothing restrains my secrets aren't safe.

march22,2009

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 23:51:24 GMT

winter games put you to shame,
as you whisper little romances into
my ear. i fear for you my darling,
i fear for you. you have those Hollywood
tears that could make you a star.
it's just that...you'll dry up just like
your words and promises.

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 03:47:51 GMT

030109
sometimes i feel as if i'm going crazy.
plunging down a blinding hole in an empty room with
an extra set of walls, falling down.
down down deeper, and the walls just
falling faster. everything broken around
me, pieces. nothing adhesive, as if there
is no cure, no solution. like i can't tie
back all the ties, only this tie around
my neck because it feels like i can't
breathe when my heart gets so heavy.
and in this empty room i see all your
faces, hear all your voices. overlapping,
biting, conflicting. everything crashing,
and i feel like i am going to explode.
and then i hear sounds, and it's
just somebody opening the door to
my empty room, and i smile as
if everything is just fine, darling,
everything is just dandy.

020909
in her last moment, her last hour
of death, her chest jumped and it
frolicked as she let out one last breath.
seasons broke down and swelled with
the tide and i think to myself, my, what
a beautiful bride.

"no, but it's detrimental to my state of mind"

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 04:22:28 GMT

dear diary...mood: apathetic
too good to last i'm pro at this mask
a smile to the eyes and i'm good to lie
don't take this the wrong way
i'm walking away with what you didn't say.
break break! stop, cut the action
when i gave you my heart i meant it as a transaction...

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 04:43:18 GMT

breaking ties and tying knots, don't you
let your blood clot. your eyes only and
hand over heart. don't dont forget love,
to let your breathing start.

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 13:47:19 GMT

hello mister i'm surprised to see you
again. so soon so soon. i could've
sworn i saw you screaming at
the last full moon.
once upon a time...i wished on
a whisper smaller than a dime. if
only i knew how to find a sustenence
with a deeper substance. because .
because the pain with you being
so shallow is that i felt claustrophobic
before hitting the surface.

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 21:43:17 GMT

not necessarily under the influence.
more like im just missing the pieces.
keep it positive
keep it clean
dont think i dont see you.

and why do i have to look away when i see you.
"is it better to have loved and lost, or never have loved at all?"
this sinking feeling,
;bitterness, disappointment, sadness.
and when will i find the words.

maybe im not trying hard enough.

i dont know what im saying.
i really do swear this is me,
this is me,
not under the influence.
just somewhere in pieces.

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 04:53:26 GMT

strangers as we are
i miss you as my half
we walk so close, yet in
distance i've forgotten
how you laugh. and once
we were fingers intertwined
now its like fingers can't even
lift to say hi hey goodbye
i can backspace all i want but
i can't push delete push send i can go
home but i can't push end
beg i will not
i just wish we were still friends

i need to know if i'm wasting my chances, or if i'm just wasting my time.

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 23:13:03 GMT

if my mind were a film, then
you'd be the reel but its all fiction
baby cause you were never real.
i called the shots but you called the
cuts. for me the script was never
deep enough. oh how i love the way you
act.

youtube , anyone?
sorry im not that good.
but if youve got some videos, get 'em at me.
i especially like watching good covers :)

just remember that

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 22:18:26 GMT

life is beautiful
every time you have a chance to wake up.

i think a lot of people don't realize that. sometimes i forget a lot too.
mhmm
http://www.myspace.com/ribshipsandriots
i dont go on as much as before,but i like
talking to interesting people and friends.
:)

inspired by dgd's "AE". the stop! part.

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 21:48:00 GMT

stones and sticks, take your pick
a limb with no leaves
don't leave if you can't take
the seasons changing. break break
brake. stop! crashed into you
i crashed into me. i gave you
my love, you left me this
disease. no need to read
my lines, just read my eyes,
except when you're blind. so kind
so kind. kind of like when we
could converse without planning rhymes.

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 17:47:38 GMT

because of you
and everything we had,
i am a ghost.
i'm fading in color as the
sun gets darker.

hi ho the mistle tow,

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 21:35:22 GMT

when you're cold i'll eat the snow.

Mon, 26 May 2008 05:05:16 GMT

its just like i am two worlds apart.

Mon, 12 May 2008 22:25:03 GMT

051107

the perks for being a wallflower

this book kind of makes me happy,
i guess, because
i can relate to it.
it also makes me sad, you know, because
i can relate to it.
i like books like these
that make me sad because
they make me sad and when i'm
sad i think about things that
usually i try to ignore because
those things make me sad.
i know its bad because i try to
distance myself from the world
and live in my own world where
things like 'problems at home'
dont exist. but i do, and i get
sad alot and i smile and i get
sad and i wish we were all
happy and loved each other and
liked each other all at the same time.
but other people always have it worse.
i kind of wish that i bought more
stuff so the receipt i'm writing
this all on was longer, but not really.
its already 9:42 and i want to read a little
more so good night i have school tomorrow.

Tue, 06 May 2008 22:41:17 GMT

oh dear my teenage love,
i can't write vengeful poetry when i
think of you.

you make me too happy.

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 23:32:19 GMT

rose within the weeds i was an
overgrown seed when you found
me i was fighting the trees
blocking the sun the clouds
thought, "this is a shady business"
i sank my feet down to the
shallow pond wondering how
far down would i slide
and that was the moment your
hands moved mine.
and who said thorns would always
hurt you.

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 01:14:27 GMT

the shortest prologue you'll ever lay eyes on:

please .

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 13:30:00 GMT

sweetie youre a corpse to the
core. (say it isnt so...)
you think about death so much
you're deaf to the loud life
around you .

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 22:00:44 GMT

i can't blame you for
hating myself.
but cant i blame you for
everything else?

no i can't.

hello.
"hey kid"
you've got those teenage eyes
i'd die to see life with.

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 13:40:11 GMT

every second of your life is a chain reaction.

hey bud

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 21:32:17 GMT

, you got game?

comrade, your teeth is crystal clear .

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 14:35:42 GMT

the night is my stage my
dreams unconscious yet more
alive than i can be. at the
moment.
in the moment i'm a blur
i want escape. i can't run
fast enough from your vices no
advice please your words
shatter me you break me.
let go.let go.let go. of me
will you ever see tears
over you that i dont regret.
the back of my head forevre
wil take residence of what
you did, i will not favor
i do not forget.
in honor of you: my dreams.
they are fire, they burn
within me. my dreams,
here, here is the steam.
help out your anger, my
time is here. just you try
to stop me.

butterfly kisses, a.

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 17:13:38 GMT

thrills down my back
and the corners of
my lips.